New to BuddySlim

Hello everyone, Rufus here living in Maricopa, AZ... New to BuddySlim and would like to meet others that are going through or have gone through the struggle of weight lose...
For 16 years now I have been battling with my weight... I can remember when I was younger I would see people that were obese... and I would say to myself "I am so glad that I'm not that way. I was about 20 when I had that thought. Now I am 36 years old and kissing 400 pounds... I always out of breath... I have to sleep with a CPAP machine, when I walk from my office to my car which is maybe 40 yards... I have to rest in the seat of my car, with one leg hanging out before I can completely get in to start it... going through all of that you would thing a brotha would get the message that it's time to drop the tons... but what really hit home and hit it good was - well let start by saying that I am a sales engineer for a videoconferencing company and one of my Son's birthday is today... I thought how cool it would be to take a snap shot of myself and my office... See my Son's live in ffice:smarttags" />lace>Oakland, CAlace>... I live in lace>Arizonalace>... and it has been awhile since I have sent them pictures of myself... so when I fired up the View Station and saw myself on the 32" screen in living color... I just fell apart... and could not believe how fat I have became... and that is why I am here now to seek help from anybody the is welling to help... work-out partner, online support, offline support, phone support... whatever, however you wanna help me I'll take it...

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I'm just tired of it all... but most of all I don't want to die at a young age... I have to sleep with a fan on at night just to have some comfort noise to help me sleep... If I hear the noise I know that I'm alive. I don't want that anymore... I need to have a whole new lifestyle when it comes to my heath. and I have said this a thousand time before but now I afraid I'm going to have a nervous break down : (>>
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