Re: letting go of binge eating
Hello everyone,
I had a major binge yesterday and did not even like the food I shoved into my mouth! I woke up sick to my stomach. Giant and swollen, almost like 5 months pregnant and not fitting in any of my favorite clothes, thanks to salty olives...
I liked what Tina said, about the support on this thread. Afterall, I started the thread and did post tons of tips and even articles at the beginning. But. Knowledge IS NOT a power unless there is motivation and resolve to use that very knowldege.
I think we all share the same obstacle - internalized shame- that prevents us from admitting what we did and make different choices. And yet it is so comforting to come here carrying the shame and see that it's not that scary and awful. People have the binge problem and deal with it. Every day.
Every bite is a choice.
I have not binged today and I want to wake up tomorrow with the light feeling in my stomach.
I want to focus on positive things that come out of binge free zone, binge free thinking, and binge free (no dark cloudy void) emotions.
Annia, I totally relate to doing well during the day and eating bunch of food at night. Catrina, I can relate to losing weight and gaining weight back, the yo-yo game I play. The truth is that I KNOW I can lose weight and I have done it in the past. But can I keep it off? Why do I slide back to the same old destructive habits? When can I learn to deal with stress and depression in a different way?
I want to work on this mental image tonight. I will imagine Kama, Tina, Sarah, Little Flower, Stacey, Catrina, Dara, Kylie, and others in a circle of strength and support and laughter. I will think that I am not alone in my struggle and that I will wake up tomorrow victorious. Just for one day, or one night.
So this is my plan and I am sticking to it!
Last edited by 10051 : 10-14-2008 at 03:22 PM.
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