Originally Posted by 10051

I am just wondering.. all the fiber ONE girls... how your husbands are doing during the night? The fart bombs could be deadly...hehehe

Sarah, you are appointed to hold the NO BINGE post tonight. LOL

Debbie, cookie dough? Not again. UGH. Do you buy it frequently? For whom?
I get what you are saying about binge foods and any food for binge. Sometimes I end up eating something gross that I would have never had if I were "normal."

I used to make my own oatmeal cookie dough - small batches to chomp on. Recently i have been buying the tubes of it the stuff - you know, the rolls. It's just for me. If i buy it, the intention is there to eat it all...i started this cookie dough one when i was a kid. I would bike to the 7-11 and buy it and then hide it in the extra freezer so my mom wouldn't see it. the house where i babysat always had some, too, and i would eat out of the bottom of it as if they wouldn't notice...silly teen thinking they wouldn't notice the big hole missing...so the cookie dough goes way back. When i was so sleep deprived the first few years of my lil one's life i started making cookie dough at his nap time. It would give me energy and comfort and support, i guess. also, everyday at nap we read this book that had the image of a mom doggie making cookies for her little snuggle puppy. amazing how powerful that little image was of the cartoon dog making cookie dough. nap time was always a struggle with the babe, so the cookie dough became this thing... that's how i gained alot of weight AFTER i had my son. I have always binged on and off and have been 10-15 pounds overweight, but after my kiddo i kept gaining and was 30 lbs overweight...

my other big bingey food has always been popcorn. a similar long-standing relationship with the stuff...

i can and do binge on lots of other things but these two are the old "friends" of binging...

ugh... mini-binge last night... WAY less than I would've binged a couple weeks back, but this morning I feel sooooo sick to my stomach , a few times already I thought I was gonna vomit .... gross.... And, seriously, it was just some peanuts.... "just" but it was, like 3 lids full (so maybe 3/4 cup? idk how many nuts go in a lid ...) and I feel like $HIT

Half of me can't believe that that little (compared to before) food can make me feel so sick , half of me is happy that my body got so used to a "normal" amout of food , half (yeah, I know, I've reached more than 1 person now) of me is just glad I put them in the lid and didn't eat from the 2lb jar ...half of me just wants to barf (not really, cuz I HATE throwing up, but... my stomach is just a churning this morning, and if I'm gonna be sick, I'd rather just get it over with )

So, I'm off to drink some water... maybe rinse things through?? Wishful thinking. The OLD me would feed this problem... but I KNOW that food is NOT going to make my tummy better. (duh, took me 20 years to figure that out?)

lol, I hate to hit send after a binge ... secret's out... even if it was such a small binge... I still got the binge-over, so I'm guessing it counts and I'm back to day 1, hehe

Have a great day everyone....

I can relate to the cookie dough thing... when I was a girl, I frequently visited/lived with my grandparents and they had homemade toll house dough that they rolled out (like the tubes) and kept in waxed paper in the fridge... gram had 5 kids of her own, and a few strays... so fresh cookies were always in demand.... but the dough... I could go past the fridge, grab a hunk... keep going.... go back.... such a comfort food.

I'm with Tatiana... after I START a binge, I can binge on whatever... even if it's something I normally wouldn't like... it all looks better mid-binge... like leaving the bar at 2 with a 10 and waking up at 10 with a 2... same with food, it ALL starts to look good after I've had some....

Originally Posted by 16314

I can (well, I could and maybe still can) eat an ENTIRE large pizza, or an ENTIRE box of anything, an ENTIRE container of icecream... etc. etc.

Oh when I was seriously binging I could eat an entire large dominos pizza, after a starter of dominos wedges AND a 500ml Ben & Jerrys tub of icecream straight after. And would you believe, and hour later I'd be hungry again?!

I was doing so well for 2 weeks. No binging. No eating rubbishy food. Then we got back from holidays and my b/f decided to order pizza with 2 starters after we went to see "The Dark Knight". It was a small pizza (9 inch), and I said I'd have my half, but none of the starters. Well, good old pizza delivery guy got lost with the order, so by the time it came, I'd talked myself up into a full fledged "I need pizza" moment. When we opened the pizza order, the order was wrong!

So my b/f phoned to complain and to get the order right. The "lovely" pizza people told us to keep that pizza and they would send the correct order over straight away. So I ended up eating 6 slices of pizza, instead of 3.

Day after that I was out of control. I ordered a medium pizza and ate it in under 15 minutes, and felt really really sick with myself after that.

Last night, I got a tub of Ben & Jerrys and ate 3/4 of it. It was after I broke my tooth, and when I was cross at my b/f for not giving a damn about me. Today after my dinner, I ate the last quarter of the tub.

I was doing so well! darn it. Right. Let's start the counter again.

Hello ladies,

When I read your binge descriptions, I can totally relate -- to all of them! I can also binge on anything. My trigger foods are ice cream, muffins/pastries, cereal, pizza, and chocolate, but to be honest, I can overeat everything. Once I begin, I won't stop until I feel physically uncomfortable. Every time I reach that point, I think, "Remember how terrible you feel right now. Stop doing this and making yourself feel sick." But I don't seem to learn.

When I binge, it's extreme. Just this Saturday, I ate an entire large pizza, a box of cereal, and a pint of ice cream within a 6-hr period. It came out to almost 5,000 calories! I'm embarrassed to even think about it, and to imagine what my family, boyfriend, or friends would think if they actually witnessed me during the binges. Out of curiosity, do any of you talk to your loved ones about your struggles with binge eating?

my husband and i are talking about my binging now and how i can better take care of myself when i am in that space. it's embarrassing, but i'm done with hiding. well, mainly, i still am a little secretive in the exact quantities or how long i stay awake at night.

Can I bust in on this?
I have a real problem with cookies. On my cheat day, I tend to go overboard.

Sarah, report to the mothership. How was last night? Did you stay strong and away from the fridge? Are you still depressed? I am sorry to hear that you have been depressed.

Depression is another of my problems and it merges with binge eating. Sometimes I don't even know if I binge because I am depressed or if I am depressed because I binge. Anyway, asking the "WHYs" never solved the problem for me. Having a good, healthy plan on preventing binges and support from family and friends works better.

Well, no binges and the hunger is still there. Emotional hunger but it feels so real. I can't get to the point where I am saturated with food. I need more and more. This is so weird.

Julie, I am glad you came back. Pizza and chocolate, and ice cream - hello favorite binge foods. Are you still buying them? I buy them sometimes trying to convince that it is for others (guests, my son, my husband) knowing in my heart that I would be the one eating them. Those binge foods would never make it to other people...

Anyway, my sister is coming to visit in two days. It prompted a shopping trip today and I was tempted to buy a chocolate cake, ice cream, pizza, etc... "for her." I remembered that we already discussed it here... I wanted to be very honest and face the truth. It was not "for her" it was for me. So I did not buy anything, only lowfat yogurt, fruits and veggies.

Little Flower, I am sorry the pizza battle still continues and ice cream follows. I wonder if there are other places to order healthy takeouts? To get rid of ice cream in your fridge?

Debbie, thanks for sharing about the cookie dough. I feel it was not easy to talk about eating it in secret. We are adults but we cope like children who don't know any better and are alone with their problems. I think you are right about not having enough support and feeling like you are failing because the weight of the world is squarely on your shoulders only.


Julie, when I started this thread, I finally got brave enough to talk to my husband about binges. But I will NOT surrender any details of the binge, like amounts and whatnot. YET.

I am with Debbie, still secretive and eat when he is not home. This will be my next big step to tell him what I ate. However, I was lying even to myself about the amount of calories I consume during the binge. Pretending that it didn't happen and refusing to record it in my food journal where I record "good" days only.

So I started to count the calories of the binges even if it made me sick and my stomach cringed. The 3000 cal would be staring in my face and my body would confirm that yes, it's how much you shoveled down your mouth in just two hours.

Ugly truth but the truth nonetheless.

Tina, nuts is my other downfall. How are you doing with them? Were they salty? Did you have enough protein that day? Are you taking your vitamins and minerals? Sometimes we have weird cravings because something is missing in our bodies.

Kama, of course you can be here. I know you don't binge.. how many cookies are we talking about?

Originally Posted by 10051

Sarah, report to the mothership. How was last night? Did you stay strong and away from the fridge? Are you still depressed? I am sorry to hear that you have been depressed.

Depression is another of my problems and it merges with binge eating. Sometimes I don't even know if I binge because I am depressed or if I am depressed because I binge. Anyway, asking the "WHYs" never solved the problem for me. Having a good, healthy plan on preventing binges and support from family and friends works better.

Well, no binges and the hunger is still there. Emotional hunger but it feels so real. I can't get to the point where I am saturated with food. I need more and more. This is so weird.

Julie, I am glad you came back. Pizza and chocolate, and ice cream - hello favorite binge foods. Are you still buying them? I buy them sometimes trying to convince that it is for others (guests, my son, my husband) knowing in my heart that I would be the one eating them. Those binge foods would never make it to other people...

Anyway, my sister is coming to visit in two days. It prompted a shopping trip today and I was tempted to buy a chocolate cake, ice cream, pizza, etc... "for her." I remembered that we already discussed it here... I wanted to be very honest and face the truth. It was not "for her" it was for me. So I did not buy anything, only lowfat yogurt, fruits and veggies.

Little Flower, I am sorry the pizza battle still continues and ice cream follows. I wonder if there are other places to order healthy takeouts? To get rid of ice cream in your fridge?

Debbie, thanks for sharing about the cookie dough. I feel it was not easy to talk about eating it in secret. We are adults but we cope like children who don't know any better and are alone with their problems. I think you are right about not having enough support and feeling like you are failing because the weight of the world is squarely on your shoulders only.


Julie, when I started this thread, I finally got brave enough to talk to my husband about binges. But I will NOT surrender any details of the binge, like amounts and whatnot. YET.

I am with Debbie, still secretive and eat when he is not home. This will be my next big step to tell him what I ate. However, I was lying even to myself about the amount of calories I consume during the binge. Pretending that it didn't happen and refusing to record it in my food journal where I record "good" days only.

So I started to count the calories of the binges even if it made me sick and my stomach cringed. The 3000 cal would be staring in my face and my body would confirm that yes, it's how much you shoveled down your mouth in just two hours.

Ugly truth but the truth nonetheless.

Tina, nuts is my other downfall. How are you doing with them? Were they salty? Did you have enough protein that day? Are you taking your vitamins and minerals? Sometimes we have weird cravings because something is missing in our bodies.

Kama, of course you can be here. I know you don't binge.. how many cookies are we talking about?

Well thanks, but I am having a problem maintaining a reasonable amount of control on the day I take a break. I can down as many a 6 cookies at a time, several times a day, and I make myself feel just sick. Does that count as a binge?

Originally Posted by FiestyKitty Kama

Well thanks, but I am having a problem maintaining a reasonable amount of control on the day I take a break. I can down as many a 6 cookies at a time, several times a day, and I make myself feel just sick. Does that count as a binge?

yes. i think if you are feeling out of control and you are making yourself sick it is a binge. we all have different levels of it at different times in our lives. you are at this great point where you have come so far, but if this feels off to you, by all means join us. diets/restrictive eating are notorious for inspiring binges, i wonder if that's what's up for you on your day off. also, it may be ok one day a week - depends how you feel about it and the negative effects.