I agree with Dara, bingeing is eating more food than your body needs trying to stuff yourself. People openly binge in buffets. At parties, during holidays.

Secretive eating starts when the shame of pigging out comes, internally or externally.

Little flower, have you tried to eat pure protein when you crave carbs? I find that when I am low and feeling tired and miserable, I crave comfort food with sugar and fat, to numb the feelings.

What you described is what I call "the awakening in the middle of the binge." making a pact with yourself that no more no matter how badly I want to continue. And the fact that you dif not order pizza is an absolute win.

Sarah, no wonder you did not gain the usual 8 pounds. Frankly, I used to use PMS as an excuse for comfort eating before. That contributed more to the weight gain that actual PMS. Thank you for posting the info on inactivity. It is scary.
Dara, are you mentally prepared for the trip? Do you have a plan? Healthy snacks packed?

I am doing okay. I brought some of my favorite foods to Hawaii and shopped for fruits and veggies at a local farmers market. It's so easy to indulge here. But I am looking at my toned body and don't want to stretch my stomach. My body doesn't get the "vacation" mindset, it deserves to be treated with respect.

I swim and walk a lot and do yoga. I feel great!

I miss posting every day here and I miss talking to you girls. Please know that I am not giving up and am thinking about you when I make decisions about food and exercise.

UGH! I am finding this battle harder this week with my PMS....TOM is due by Sunday or Monday (and saying I hadn't gained anything yet yesterday...may have invited the weight cuz I feel bloated etc. today) and I always feel like OD'ing on carbs and chocolate. I don't think I will even hit the scale for another week just to keep myself from getting discouraged on top of hormones... I am really trying to stay focused, drink my water and keep my exercising! I have saved a pile on groceries/junk food in the past week and a half though!

We have to all hang in there during these trying time periods....press on...stay focused and stay positive! We CAN do this people!

We were typing at the same time Tatiana haha! Glad to hear you are doing well! One quick question....how would I eat PURE PROTEIN?? I am interested just not sure where the highest source of protein is!
Also, does anyone do shakes for breakfast? Like those Carnation Breakfast shakes or the protein shakes? Do you find it helps with hunger/energy etc?

Thanks in advance for the help yet again!!!!!

Sarah, I did not mean "pure" protein, haha. Eggs, turkey, grilled chicken, nonfat yogurt. No bread and even fruit. Some veggies. It usually fills me up and I can say to myself that with such a filling meal I am not really hungry, it is in my mind, the cravings.

Sarah, I don't know about you, but I would still weigh myself. I used to think that I would stay away from the scale for a week or two and "be good" and get some great numbers. Guess what? I would gain instead because of no accountability and wishful thinking. I think that for me, I need to learn to tolerate weight fluctuation without feeling desperate when I see a little gain. It's simply setting up a binge cycle mentally again, like saying, "I tried so hard and what do I get instead? Screw everything, I am so upset, where is my chocolate?!!" LOL

Ohhhhhhhh OK....that makes more sense now about the protein! LOL...duh..I thought I was behind the times !

You all should be surprised that I am in a good mood today. I feel tired, gross, and overweight....TOM is due today and if I don't admit to you all I would be lying....I binged last night. I feel the 'bingeover' this morning and I already felt bad so now add this eat fest I had last night (1st one since I came here) I lost control last night and I likely consumed about 1000-2000 calories and I feel disgusted with myself. AT THE SAME TIME.....I am starting to count binge free days over today and I am feeling VERY positive and really want to press on past this slip up. I am trying to keep my chin up. I am a very routined person....it all started with not getting nearly as much water into me as I needed to yesterday....then everyone wanted fast food for supper (I caved, I forgot how long I feel sick after I eat that garbage)...overall it was a bad day I let get outta control...today is a new day!

Yes, Tatiana you are correct about the scale....I will continue to step on it daily or every second day.

Re-starting....food journal, exercise log and water log daily. Healthy food choices.....staying positive and pressing on....we CAN do this.

UGH..back up to my original weight.....glad today is 'startover' day....I wish I could erase the past 2 days but all I can do it get up and dust myself off and press on. Seeing as I KNOW I can do this...I WILL! I managed to be binge free and I will again.

How is everyone else doing???

Hi Sarah,
I am back! Lost another two pounds. On a vacation! No binges and I am still exercising and watching the connection between emotions and eating.

I am sorry you had difficult two days. Sorry about the yo yo... what could have you done differently to avoid binges?

Sarah, I hope you will be back and it's okay to start over with a new resolution. I suspect that the thread was kind of dead for a few days and it contributed to your overeating...

for the first time i think i understand what my issue is. i spent my whole life having to take care of everyone else, so i rebel in private by not taking care of myself. i binge eat constantly. i always have, but i have always done so in private. i hate to admit it, but i actually get hyper and excited at the thought of eating whatever i choose whenever i want. when no one is home, i eat way too much, but i feel like i have to eat it all before anyone comes home so they don't see me. if they don't see me, i didn't fail. i have never admitted this to anyone. am i sick? what is wrong with me?

Hey Tatianna....I am still around!! I had a real bad week and will handle next months TOM much better and be better prepared! I totally let my guard down...I only binged 2 times but still it left me feeling soooo nasty! I decided to start over and press on. I am sure things will be fine....just gotta get myself together this weekend. Going outta town just for one night.,.....and I won't be around any late night snacks so there won't be temptation!

So ya...I am back with all that is in me but a few lessons learned! Hope everyone else is doing great...and thanks for thinking of me Tatiana! I will certainly be sticking around!!