checking in tonight. hope ya'll are doin good.

Hello Ladies

No, telling me Irfan is a butthead didn't scare me off LOL I KNOW he's a jerk, so I don't mind when other people say it. I think I need to hear it in order to accept it.

The wedding was okay in and of itself... the bride was pretty, the decorations looked nice... and everything went smoothly. But I felt so lonely; I was there alone, and got sad that SHE is 5 days older than me and is getting everything she wants... a cute husband, a beautiful daughter, and supportive friends. My friends have been lacking in that department lately, and I don't even have a boyfriend anymore. I was mad... then I "stalked" him online, checking out his profiles and other crazy things that girls do when slighted. I really shouldn't have... I saw some things I didn't like.

For example, in his blog, she had "hacked" into it because she was at his house and stole his computer. I WAS SOOOO FREAKING MAAAAD!!!! He NEVER let me go over, not even once, and this TRAMP waltzes in from another freakin' province and goes over to his house when he's SUPPOSED to be grieving from letting ME go! GRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *btw, this is utter frustration and FURY!!!*

Sigh. I wish I didn't have so much pent-up emotion. I'm reading this book that is making me want to DO this for real, to be healthy and take care of my body. BUT THIS ISN'T MAKING IT ANY EASIER!!!

**hugs** amanda! sounds like the only person hurting here is is yourself and you have got to move on. did you look into the things we talked about?? can you talk tonight on msn again?? I miss chatting with you and i think you really need a friend right now. take care of YOURSELF and your WONDERFUL daughter first! the right one will come along when you least expect it.

more hugs to amanda! are you reading any blogs? i find that helpful. they should have "my boyfriend sux" as a category, eh. or you could launch your own! "buddy you're gone" you could call it! ha ha ha. seriously, though, so sorry about all the disappointments and let downs. i know when i am really down i suddenly notice how my friends aren't doing what i want! not sure if it's me or them to blame but either way it feels horrible and lonely! reaching out is always a scary thing but good to do. that plus getting out - do you work/go to school? must eat lunch am starving - take care!

deb

ps - should we get back to Sat weigh ins? Or regular walks? it's fun just to chat, too!

I think getting back to Sat weigh ins is a good idea. I actually look forward to it this week, I have worked hard at staying focused on getting back to 175 by Sat. I find putting myself 'out there' for all to see is really helpful. It's fun to make progress and practically hear all of you cheering me on. I'm trying that BBQ chicken wrap for lunch today...the receipe is from someone here at bs and sounds good. I get these great wraps from La Tortilla Factory, they are big (9"), soft white, whole grain, made with olive oil, only 100 cal and 13 gr fiber! I'll let you know how I like the receipe. I can't say enough about those wraps though, they are a great, healthy alternative to bread. I've tried other brands and they taste like sawdust.... see you later.....

morning everyone! hope we're all having a great morning!! good luck today!

Sat weigh in - that's great! Let's see where we all are. Sandy thanks for the tip and Ellie thanks for always checking in! It's raining like mad out, so not so much for me and Mo today and yesterday not much either. I have that darn stomach bug again - argh! On a fun note, we took our son to see our neighbor's kid's dance performance last night (high school) and he loved it! It was so cute!

Sat weighin - I'm at 159! YAHOOOOOOOO! Next week TOM comes, so I'm sure it'll go back up a little, but for now I'm celebrating!!!

how much weoght loss is that debbie??? thats fantastic!! i'm goin to weigh myeslf in a few

Originally Posted by 10574

how much weoght loss is that debbie??? thats fantastic!! i'm goin to weigh myeslf in a few

That was 4 for this week, but last week was only1. I also have a mild case of the stomach bug so didn't eat that much yesterday - ate, but smaller amounts...