Jeanie's Diary

Stress, stress, and more stress. I'm nearly over my chest cold, but the forces that be must hate me.

Saturday my grandmother was sent to the hospital. Before I moved several states away, I was always the one to take care of her. Now shes in ICU and I can't be there. The doctors aren't sure if shes going to make it...

As if that wasn't enough, I got a call from my mother yesterday that my grandpa on her side is in ICU too because of his prostate. They're also plotting to put my other grandmother in a nursing home, which is the last thing that she'd want. None of the family on that side actually cares for my grandparents. They need a little help, but not constant supervision. If anyone would just take the time to check on them a few times a week...I mean, it isn't that difficult. I did that for my other grandma for years before I moved.

I want to go back so bad its making me ill, but even if I did I couldn't fix anything. I can't go back to stay, I have a job and a life here now. It'd be damn near impossible to go back now. If I just went to visit it wouldn't solve anything, no one would take care of them after I left.

ugh!