Jeanie's Diary

I like this idea. There are so many little comments floating around in my head that I want to get out there...but I don't want to spam blogs!


I know this is going to take time, especially since I can't force myself to be on a diet. The idea of forbidding certain foods just make me crave them more. I'm bad about being rebellious, especially against my own rules. It makes things so much harder to dedicate to.

I'm not punishing myself for things I do wrong, but I am going to reward myself for each thing I do right! I'm not going to let myself mope around because I've convinced myself that I'm ugly...its not me, its the weight.

My current rules and rewards:
- I refuse to buy any more clothing until the clothes I have are too big.
- I'll buy myself a laptop when I reach my first mini-goal: I've been saving up for one for months and have more than enough now. I don't need it but really want it!
- I'm going to stop drinking soda. When I can go 7 full days without even a diet soda I'll buy the 3rd season of Dexter, which I'm dying to get!


I'm in the process of weaning myself off of cokes and fried food. The fried food isn't nearly as difficult as the cokes...caffeine addiction...