Well this has been a rough journey for me over the past few months. When I started my weight loss it was back in July and at the point I was 315lbs . I was so sick of the way I looked and felt that I decided to do something about it. So I started my journey to a better life and for awhile there I was doing great. By September I had lost 28 lbs and I was so proud and felt better then ever I had not been under 300 or 290 for that matter in years. I remember the day that I saw the scale hit 299 I cried right there in the dr. office and the nurse was so proud of me she smiled and was like wow congrats I knew you could do it. That made me feel so good. But then a few things changed in my life and I lost my job and got depressed and put some weight back on, but still I was going to the gym 5 days a week and trying to eat right. I had been taking a diet pill since July and just stopped talking it on Nov 1st , and now my body is all out of wack. I am so pissed I have let myself gain all bu 5 lbs back I said I would never let myself get back over 300 and now I am back up to 310. I dont know what to do somedays all I want to do is give up and others I just want to work harder than ever. So this is what I have decided to do I am going to sit down and write myself a little letter everyday letting me know how things are going and that way I can look back and see what all I have been going through. I dont have many people that I can talk to so this is my way to get things out. If anyone has any thoughts as to what has worked for them please let me know .

Today was a good day. I got to spend sometime with my older daughter Janae, she and I went grocery shopping. That was hard for me to not go and get all the sweet stuff like I used too. I was there for over 2 hours reading lables and such but by the end I think I got some really good stuff for me and my family . I want to show my kids and mom that eating healthy can taste good. I am a snacker and so I got some of thoes 100 cal pack of snacks. They are pretty good I think. Anyways I am off to the gym in the morning for my 1st work out in 2 weeks wish me luck

Not such a good day I was wanting to get back into the gym today but was unable to do so. Whatever has been making me sick is nto going away and the dr;s have no clue what it is. All they will tell my is I have an infection in my blood. It makes me kinda scared to think there may or may not be something wrong with me. I guess only time will tell

its been a few days and I am proud to say I got back in the gym today I am so happy and it felt so good to work out again. I still dont know whats wrong with me and still not feeling 100 % but getting back in the gym makes me feel a whole lot better. I am off to spend the day with my folks and doing some x-mas shopping everyone have a great day