Dear Diary...I need help...Seriously. I want to lose my next 15 pounds by August...I have a birthday bash on a beach to attend...This means SWIM SUIT...UGH...

I know how to do it. I know I can do it...So why cant I just DO IT??? Seriously!! I have been a bit out of control this week and I dont like that feeling...I want to get my control back and soon...I only have 30 opunds to go. This is nothing Diary...This is not even close to the 110 pounds I had to lose at the start...GEESH...

Diary...Please help me find my motivation and keep that motivation, so i can start losing regularly again...

UGH...

Dear Dawnie, this is your diary speaking. Now Dawnie you have been enjoying some wonderful things in your life and that's fantastic! And it probably feels really good right now enjoying all those things. But, you still have things you want to accomplish. And, you know if you stop doing something on a regular basis, it is hard to get back on track. Especially with working out and eating right. So, my advice to you is to get back to basics. Quit looking at the number 15. Only look at this day by day or week by week. I can see all the weight you have lost since you started so there is no question you know how to do it. You just need to start over right now to finish the rest. Back to basics. Back to what works. You can still have fun. Just put the working out and eating right on top of the list and the fun second. Let me stress second. Not last. And not forever. Just for now. Until we reach our goals. I hope this helps. I'm only a diary so what do I know? Good luck!

Dawnie, this is from the most sincere place in me.....

I think you have had alot of "Off" days. I am sure you needed them or wanted them and prepared for them. Now, time to get back in it full force.....
You want to reach your goals and you can do it!
Time to get serious Dawnie! I know that you know what has to be done and you can do it!!! We are all here rooting for you and we know you have come so far. Get to it Dawnie!! Back in track, tomorrow is a new day! Make it a great one....

Dear Diary...Thank you! I know you are right...

I just need to go back to basics. I know this...I have had too many off days...Too many excuses for fun. And they HAVE been fun, but they have been too many...And I dont like how they make me feel...

I have been on this road an awful long time...So this is not new to me...

I just need to find that motivation to keep on going. I feel okay with myself right now, actually, and I know thats a lot of my problem...I have lost the motivation to keep going...

My friends like me. The husband likes me...And, well, I LIKE ME...So what do I use to keep on going????

Ugh...Diary...It is a tough one...This dieting thing...



I am in a funk...

Dawnie, Diary here again. You mentioned in your diary entry that the party coming up would mean you would wear a swimsuit and you said "ugh" about that. So you know you would feel more confident if you lost a little more so there is some motivation right there. You also mentioned you don't like the feeling of not having control either so there is some motivation there, too. Get your control back. I don't doubt that you love the way you look now and love the way you feel now either. But, those two things (swimsuit and control) shows me you know you are not done just yet. Any weight you lose now is just icing on the cake now. Anything you lose now from here on will just make you look even hotter. What woman doesn't want to feel like that? Good luck Dawnie!

Dear Diary...You sure do dish out some tough tough love!!!

It's okay. I needed to hear it. And make no mistake. I have HEARD you dear diary!

I am currently thinking and reflecting and getting a plan together so that I can finally finish this part of my journey and start the next phase...

Just wanted to say thanks for listening and for the feedback. I had no idea a diary could have sooo many dimensions!

DIARY. You ROCK!!!

Thanks Diary. I learned a lot from your advice to Dawnie.

Hello Dear Diary......

I am here today out of frustration. I am so angry about my weigh in today. I worked as hard as I normally do, maybe a little harder, ater right and managed to be up 4 lbs!!!! HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN? It is so frustrating!

No, I will not give up, I will keep doing what I always do. Just makes me mad when I do what I should and see no progress....worst yet, a gain!!!

*SIGH*
Oh well, can't let it bring me down too much. I just feel like I am gonna be losing the same 5-6 lbs over and over!
Thanks for listening dear diary....

Don't worry too much Tasha, you are at that weight now that can get a little stubborn moving. Just keep doing all the right things and give it that little extra push. You know you can do it woman!

Dear Diary....

Yesterday was a good day for me. I have been looking for a new bathing suit. Everyone is getting frustrated with me because they want me to go swimming and I keep saying, I don't have a bathing suit. All the ones I did have are now too big on me so I got rid of them. In a way, I was just using the excuse of not having a bathing suit so I wouldn't have to actually get into one in front of anyone. I do feel good about myself but still have alot of flaws that I don't want to flaunt.

So, I have been feeling really good about myself lately. My friend once again asked me to go swimming and again, I said I don't have a bathing suit. Honestly, I have looked and just can't find one I like! So she suggests we go to good will to look. I was like, yeah right, I highly doubt I will find one there that will fit, much less like. So, I did find a brand new one with the tags still on it for $3.00!!

It is cute and was VERY AFFORDABLE! Now, no more excuses! I must get out there and swim! EEK!