Re: 5 things you can't wait to do..
I thought long and hard about it, and the only thing I really can't wait to do seems to be:
Nothing.
I can't wait for a day when I can comfortably do absolutely nothing in terms of maintaining my body. No food log, no measuring food, no excersise, no worrying about food & activity balance, no managing hunger, no doing chores to keep busy.
I want a day of Great Nothing, like my body doesn't exist. My family doesn't exist. My job doesn't exist. Even my hobby doesn't exist. My banking account doesn't exist. Things I want to read or watch do not exist.
I just want to spend a day laying in bed in a room full of pretty things and flowers, or maybe outdoors, by the sea shore or whatever, and not being terrified that I am wasting my time, and worrying about some thing or another. And I want someone serve me foods, make a bath for me, oil my back, and preferably doing it out of love.
I don't think I will ever get it. My husband is not that kind of a man (he'd whine in paradize), and I do not see myself aquiring a wealthy lover in this life.
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