My hubby has a job interview in the morning.... please buddies, pray for him. I know he worries about us, he's been out of work since June and we are barely making it. Living on 713.00 a month SSI and whatever he can make doing 'handyman' work is scary. Thank God for our son and the fact that we can live here in our motor home rent free. I used to feel bad that we had to sell our home, but now I realize how unimportant that was... as long as we can survive and be together.... I just hate seeing him so worried and trying to hide it from me. He acts very calm about this interview, but I know he isn't. There aren't a lot of jobs here, it's such a small town, but he has been driving into Eugene doing part time jobs and it's 70 miles round trip and you know how expensive gas is.... also I worry because he doesn't have any medical insurance... ok, that's all. Thanks for listening, and thanks for your prayers. It does help to get it off my chest. Why is it so hard to lose weight when I'm worried? You would think it would kill my appetite. No such luck.

Originally Posted by 11482

My hubby has a job interview in the morning.... please buddies, pray for him. I know he worries about us, he's been out of work since June and we are barely making it. Living on 713.00 a month SSI and whatever he can make doing 'handyman' work is scary. Thank God for our son and the fact that we can live here in our motor home rent free. I used to feel bad that we had to sell our home, but now I realize how unimportant that was... as long as we can survive and be together.... I just hate seeing him so worried and trying to hide it from me. He acts very calm about this interview, but I know he isn't. There aren't a lot of jobs here, it's such a small town, but he has been driving into Eugene doing part time jobs and it's 70 miles round trip and you know how expensive gas is.... also I worry because he doesn't have any medical insurance... ok, that's all. Thanks for listening, and thanks for your prayers. It does help to get it off my chest. Why is it so hard to lose weight when I'm worried? You would think it would kill my appetite. No such luck.

I will pray for you tomorrow and will have my class pray for you and John as well! I hope that this all works out for you. You deserve it!!! I can understand how you feel too, money is such a hard topic in our house too!
LYM!!

Thanks Julie... I really think prayer has a lot of power, if this job is the right one for him I'm sure all those prayers will make it happen. I know you and Mike have your money problems, too. I pray for you both every Sunday. May we all have the strength to handle whatever comes our way. LYM, too!

Originally Posted by Bette Jo

My reasons for wanting to lose weight!
I hated the way I looked! I fooled myself for a long time, by only looking at my face in the mirror! My wake up call came when I saw my picture from my oldest son's wedding! I saw a very large unhappy woman with no confidence in herself. I didn't love myself so how could anyone else love me!

I also wanted to lose weight for health reasons! My parents and older brothers and sisters all had health issues because of weight! The health issues ranged from diabetes to, back, knee and hip problems that required surgeries! It really scared me! I couldn't walk very far without my back and legs killing me! If I got on the floor to play with my grandkids I had to crawl to the couch to get back up or have hubby pull me up!

I have proven to myself I can do this! I have also met so many wonderful friends along the way that have helped me! So I know I can continue this journey and succeed!

Big HUGS!

Bette Joe, I can so relate. I don't like what I see in the mirror. My youngest daughter got married 2 years ago and I still have not looked at the wedding pictures because I know I will hate (I don't like to use that word, sorry) to see the way I looked. AND I have to watch how I get down on the floor also to play with the grandkids. I think about that before I get down, so I don't make a scene in getting up. So I get down by something that I can use to help me get up. I know this does not make sence to a lot of people but it is an issue with me. Bette Joe you are doing soooo good. I know I have to buckle down if I am going to make a difference in my weight loss, so just to let you know, you are proof it can happen. Thanks Bette Joe..

Sandy and Julie, my prayers, heart and thoughts are with you. I know money is an issue with so many of us. Boy Sandy I wish we lived near each other, we have so much work around here for a handyman. My husband is on oxygen 24/7 so it limits a lot of work that he can do. He is only 65 yrs old but has IPF. So I try to do a lot myself but he feels bad he can't do it. I try not to do stuff in front of him. We need a handyman to come and help us. We need to all move in a "Heartbreaker community" so we can help each other. Anyway, I will be thinking of you guys. Please let us know how his interview went. ((HUGS TO YOU ALL))...

Originally Posted by 11482

My hubby has a job interview in the morning.... please buddies, pray for him. I know he worries about us, he's been out of work since June and we are barely making it. Living on 713.00 a month SSI and whatever he can make doing 'handyman' work is scary. Thank God for our son and the fact that we can live here in our motor home rent free. I used to feel bad that we had to sell our home, but now I realize how unimportant that was... as long as we can survive and be together.... I just hate seeing him so worried and trying to hide it from me. He acts very calm about this interview, but I know he isn't. There aren't a lot of jobs here, it's such a small town, but he has been driving into Eugene doing part time jobs and it's 70 miles round trip and you know how expensive gas is.... also I worry because he doesn't have any medical insurance... ok, that's all. Thanks for listening, and thanks for your prayers. It does help to get it off my chest. Why is it so hard to lose weight when I'm worried? You would think it would kill my appetite. No such luck.

Yes maam I just prayed for you & John. I will continue to pray for you both today. God bless~

I also need my buddies prayers this morning. My older daughter had a grand mal seizure yesterday morning. She is headed to the doctor in about 30 minutes. We are asking for some healing prayers for her.

Thanks buddies

Sorry I haven't been very active all. I've been reading religiously, but not posting-- I feel like a bad buddy.

I hope everything goes well for Sandy and Tiffany today..best of luck to you both..

I've been thinking about what you asked, Tiffany, why do we want to lose weight. I've also been listening to a ..weight loss coach I guess you could call it, on my iPod.. She addresses it a lot as well.

It's hard to really pin point what it is. We all make so many cover stories. For me it's sickening to see pictures of me when my friends take them. I feel like I look so much fatter than I am.. but I know I'm big. I just want to know how it feels to be skinny, as I've always been fat. The smallest I ever was, was a size 12 in Jr's in middle school which is a little bigger than average-- and you know, I had the most fun at that time. I had a lot of close friends whom I did things with constantly. As the years went on and I got fatter, that happened less and less.

I want to be comfortable with myself. As it is now I feel like people are always looking at the fat girl; I hate eating in public. I think everyone is watching me and thinking, "how can she be eating when she's that BIG?" It drives me crazy when I eat my lunch during the day.

My biggest problem is I worry too much about what people think of me. I know that if I lose weight I'll have much more confidence and I'll be able to be the person I know I am-- the person I am with my husband and family. As it is right now, I worry too much in public and I cannot express myself like I know I am able to. I have a lot of problems speaking and am not able to have a well thought out conversation. I'm HORRIBLE at small talk. And I know this will all improve if I can just drop this weight.

A small addition, which is also important to me, is that I don't want to fall into the family pattern of health problems relating to weight--that's terrifying to me.

I'm ashamed with myself that I was able to lose 30 lbs earlier this year, and then gained half of it back. And not only that; now I can't seem to lose ANY! I can't fit into half of my "new" clothes now, which is extremely upsetting to know that I could and then I ruined it and am back where I was before.

Hello Hearbreakers! I just wanted to come by and say hi to all of my friends! I almost was a heartbreaker but became a Rockstar! I hope you all have a great day and I will see all of you in the forums. STACEY

Tiffany, thanks for thinking of me when you have such problems of your own. I will pray for your daughter, that all goes well today and you both find the strength to get through whatever lies ahead. Blessings ....