My name is Jennifer (Jenn) and I have been a member of this site for over a year now. I was doing an online food journal but it did not have what I needed. I needed people and when I did a search the first thing to come up was Buddyslim. I learned so much from being here and I am so thankful that I found this site when I did. I have learned that there are people just like me who struggle and what I value about this site most of all is that we all have a goal to be our best and hopefully healthiest selves.
My parents divorced when I was 3 and my Mom is an emotional eater. I grew up eating the standard white junk and my weight sky rocketed. When I was 10 years old (150 lbs) I needed to have hip surgery (related to issues that I had at birth) and my weight continued to rise as I did very little activity.
My weight has always been an issue with most people in my family except my Mom. We were overweight together, like mother, like daughter. My Mom remarried and high school was an extremely stressful time, both at home and at school. I did however explore my artistic and creative side at home and school by writing, drawing and painting. It made me feel really good to create. I had some wonderful friends through out school and this is likely why I was not super depressed. I was bulimic at times through out the last couple years of high school and this was weight related and extreme stress related. I felt like I had very little control over my security and life. At grad I weighed 250 lbs.
I went away for university and lost 50 lbs (water?, food? and a great deal of weight) in just 2 months! I had pretty steady losses after this, but still remained over weight and had numerous health issues (too many to count) and this is what lead me to really study nutrition and become so passionate about how important it is to take care of THIS BODY. I have learned that food is not a friend or a poison (though the wrong foods can certainly behave as poisons), but rather food is our best medicine. Yes, enjoy life and its many gifts, but doing so wisely and moderately…. So I try to tell myself. I am not perfect. Do not wish to be either. But I want to do my best and keep my body going for as long as possible. It is not hard to see where I have developed these thoughts since I have been a caregiver of the elderly for 8 years. It has been an education to see who does well in later life and who does not. The time is always now to take care of ourselves.
I have much to do in this life, but I take each day and try to do the best I can with that day, with this moment. I am currently studying Holistic Nutrition from the Canadian School of Natural Nutrition. I see what I just wrote and I think, wow, that is sad. I do not see the past really and I do not feel sad at all right now. Now in order to deal with some things, I have needed to delve into the past and explore, but I Jenn/Jennifer am about really understanding that I am limitless and the past does not define me. This is so tough for me, but I believe this and I will always strive to find that place where I am completely at peace.
I feel best eating mostly vegetarian (some fish) and when I am active. For most of my adult life I have been really active, but it is those numerous portions that have kept me over weight. And so change is a good thing.
I came to the Wild Cats team because of Kama and all that she represents here at Buddyslim. I was gaining and my bum knee was getting me down. Now I feel good to know that in those times when I feel like letting it all go, I have a team to think about. That is just too cool.
I wish everyone health and happiness!
