HEY ALL!!!! I have finally come to a realization and I want to share it with EVERYONE I can. We are all on this site because we want to improve ourselves and we need help. Asking for help is a big step. Swallowing your pride and asking for it can be hard and I just want to say that you all inspire me just by doing so.
Here is my statement. We are the ones that have the control. We decide what we eat and drink ( alot of calories we consume are from what we drink ). NO ONE shoves the food down our throat. Its our CHOICE!!! Dont get me wrong, I love to eat, I love food. But something tasting great ( my weakness is chocolate ) just isnt worth feeling bad about ourselves. Food has managed to get such a hold on us that it controls how we feel and how we look. I mean we are the "fattest" country in the world!!! I may love to eat but feeling depressed and insecure about myself isnt worth it. I will not let something like food control who I am anymore. I am the one who decides what I eat and how much of it. NO ONE makes me. I am not going to blame anyone but myself anymore.
We are good people. We deserve to be happy. We shouldnt have to worry about who is looking at us and what they are thinking about us. If they think we're fat, if they are talking about us. We should be able to hold our heads high because we know we are doing what is right for ourselves and our bodies. So on those days when you feel like binge eating just because its there, or you are just too tired to workout, do it anyway. No one is going to do it for you and the weight WONT go away on its own. Anyone who has gotten anything they wanted in life had to WORK for it. I am willing to do that now. I am not a bad person and I dont deserve to be unhappy with myself.
Sometimes I look at thin people pigging out and I am so jealous. But the fact of the matter is, those people arent me and never will be. I will always have to work to get to where I want to be and thats ok. You appreciate things more when you had to put in the hard work to get it. So years from now when that weight and eating catches up with those people I was jealous of and they wait for the weight to drop off because it always has before, I will sit back and smile, knowing that I have the right mindset and tools to be the person I want to be. I will never turn bad again.
I hope my words inspire some others to come with me. I will need the occassional boost myself. Its so hard to do it alone and thats why I'm here. Just remember that you control your life. You control what you eat and if you work out or not. Thats all you. There is ALWAYS time. ALWAYS!!!!! Never give up and just throw your hands up. You may have a bad week where you worked your butt off and nothing happened and that can be discouraging, but YOU are the one who decides if you are going to LET it discourage you or if you are going to work twice as hard the next week. Together we can do this. I know we can!!!!!

Amen!!!!!