Just a quick Good morning gotta get something to drink!

Good morning April and the rest of the crew

I'm off for another busy day. Evening VMA meeting so won't be home until 10, then need to pack in order to leave again tomorrow. At least this trip is for a long weekend down to see my parents in Florida. Jim is staying home with the furbabies b/c he has an install. Can't remember the last time I just had one on one time with my parents...I'm so looking forward to it. I figure every day we still have dad with us is a blessing so I'm going to soak it up!!! Life's too damn short.

Been thinking more and more about starting my own practice after my non-compete is up. Kind of exciting, kind of scary....I need to find a sugar daddy...LOL.

I best get my rear in the shower. You guys have a fantastic day!

Big hugs!!!

Lori T

Morning Lori! Sounds like you will be extremely busy today. Just remember to drink lots of water and take some veggies with you if you won't have time for eating. Enjoy the time with your parents it's so true that we must cherish the time we have with them.

Oh girls work has been so busy! I'm just pooped! I'm even going to bed early and yet I'm still lagging around in the mornings. 79,000 seems to be my number at the moment. We just finished up the Bishnik. we have a chiefs letter coming through and walk cards as well all have that same 79,000 number to go with it. So i'll be busy for a while. The fundraiser went well yesterday despite the flooding rains. It's still raining this morning but they are saying it should let up later on today!

Ok I'm going to go shower and see if I can wake up. You girls have a great day and KEEP MOVING!!

Hello everyone,
ended up being so wiped out yesterday. Was very snacky by the end, but ate healthy, I'm sure my body is trying to catch up after being sick most of last week. Listened to idol w/ my eye closed thru most. Maybe Kristy is going home. Cant really judge this week. Think we have a meeting @ work today, so some more time off the phones. not much else from me

April- have a good one
Lori- enjoy the vacation time w/ your dad.

take care everyone and have a great day
Lizzy

GOOD MORNING!!! It is a new day !!! I hope that after Sue's post last night that everyone is getting a grip and a good look at what they need to do..I know I did and thank you SUE!!! Now lets do this..together!!!!!

I stayed up again this morning but DH didn't get up as early as he was able to go in a couple of hours late but I have gotten the kitchen tidied up and spent some 1-on-1 time with him so this being my 1/2 day today I am going to walk this afternoon for my exercise! I have a plan in place and I AM GOING TO STICK TO IT! If I come back here and say there is some lame reason for me not getting my exercise in this afternoon...somebody please slap me in the face and wake my ass up ! We have to keep each other accountable. I need this because I do not have the liberty of going to a WW meeting..there aren't any in my area that I am able to attend which totally sucks but this is life.

Nikki..hmmm there is just one thing you said yesterday, I can't agree with..I am not grey yet !!!! LOL!! My hair was a lot lighter blonde than it is now but that is how my aunt and my mom did..their hair darkened up first, then later they began to get a few grey hairs...sorry, just had to clarify that!!!

Em & Sue..thanks for the egg tips..I am going to attempt to boil some tommorrow or maybe this afternoon...I just hate that I suck at boiling eggs ...oh and Em, my MIL keeps dyed ones out all week during Easter and it freaks me out!!!

Anna...find that meeting girl!!! if you need it, by all means get to it.

Jen..talked to my SIL who is a pharmacist last night and she thinks DD needs to switch or stop b/c for a month or 2 and see what happens..said alot of times in the younger girls, the weight gain is sooo much worse and uncontrollable...she is like me, lets get it under control and off now before she is up 10-15 lbs and we aren't able to get it under control as easy. She mentioned several other brands I could ask doc about switching too. DD was all for stopping for a month or 2 and seeing if she feels any better without them.

Lizzy..morning girl!!! Have a great day...we only have 1 more work day this week!! WOO HOO!!!

April...have a great day at work!

Lori...sounds like a wonderful weekend planned..enjoy it! I completely understand your need for 1-on-1 time with parents..it has been forever since I have had that.

Okay..gotta scoot for now and get kids up and rolling.

Good Morning Ladies.

I got such a good nights sleep...could have slept a little longer, but it was good all the same.

From yesterday's workout, I have a good sore happening this morning with the upper body, therefore today when I go to the Y, I am going to work lower body and then take a swim. Tomorrow I will work upper body and use one of the cardio machines. I think that is a good plan to switch off like that.

I finished my afghan last night and started cutting the squares for the fleece afghan I want to do. Well I broke the hole punch so had to stop....that wasn't good. I had the munchies big time, so I picked up a ball of yarn and started working on my dad's afghan for the meantime. LOL I just needed to keep busy.

Sue's post was great last night. I hope everyone gets a chance to read it and think about it.

April......I hope you have a good day at work.

Lori.....that would be great if you opened your own practice!!! How long until your non-compete ends? Enjoy your time in Fla this weekend!!!!

Lizzy.....good job on making the snacks healthy!!!

Terry......Yeah I would call the Dr. to see about switching. Good girl on getting up and exercising!!!

Oh well....I have to get the tribe up....BBL.

Jen

Morning! watched Idol last night, and that was about it...here's my prediction: Kristie Lee Cook is going home tonight.

Had art class yesterday, our last one is thursday..my 2nd painting is really coming together.

MIL is supposed to come today, but our boats arn't running yet and all this rain we are getting is causing fog, so I'm thinking she may not make it. I won't be too sad, lol...

Well, I only had a minute to read thru Sue's post, gonna go back after everyone leaves....looks good!

Morning girls.
Oh it was so hard to get up this morning. Ds decided for the first time since he got in his big boy bed, that he missed his snuggles and needed to be with me. Oye. Could that have anything to do with dh being a royal jerk last night? Hmm. Anyway, I had a hard time falling asleep, and when I woke up at 1AM and dh was still up, that kept me awake for a bit. The alarm rang and 4:45 and it hurt.
I found a trigger last week that I didn't realize was a problem for me. Special K bars. I have to eat something right when I wake up or I get a really acidy belly. For a long time now, I've been grabbing a special K bar, and then it was 2 (heck, they're only 90 cals, right?). Well, last week I think I ate 4 before breakfast. So those are out of my morning routine. I just had some applesauce to go with my morning caffeine.

I'm so glad you all liked my post. I really agonized over it. Wrote it out several times and went...nah, that is way to BCBish. Thing is, there were good things about that place...there was always someone to jar you into perspective. Although the list of things that drove me nuts was a lot longer. I realized after reading everyone's posts yesterday that I have gotten into this pattern with dh. He's always miserable. I can't make him a happy man. That's really hard for me to put out there, but it's true. He has major issues with how he was raised, and he battles with so much anger within himself that he can't see all the love that's around him. It hurts me and it hurts ds. But I love him. I've thought about leaving, and I know that he would shrivel up and die without me. God, that was really hard to say. I've been so overwhelmed by this over the past few months that I've been really self sabotaging. Maybe I was thinking if I was as miserable as he is, we'd be ok. Maybe I was afraid that if I slimmed back down, someone would pay me some attention and I'd have to face some things I'm not sure how to face. Or maybe I've been insulating myself from it all. He's been gaining weight because he stays up til all hours playing that stupid online game, and he thinks it's license to eat at 1 am, and he does NOTHING physical. So now he's unhappy with his body as well. I've been trying to help him, since he's asked for it. I make his healthy lunches, I cooked a lovely healthy dinner last night (that ds raved about, said it was like eating out, lol....shows you the last time I put effort into cooking). I have bent over backwards enabling him to get to the gym. He's had an excuse every day for not getting there. Yesterday morning I found a wrapper from some 2% cheddar that I know was about 4 oz full in the trash. Last night at 1am, I head the pretzel bag being wadded up. He's just going to get bigger, and until he deals with himself and his issues, I can't do anything about it.

So I have to let it go. I have to focus on making myself happy, and on giving ds the best life I can give him. He's a wonderful child and I'm wracked with guilt on a daily basis that he doesn't have a father that appreciates that and spends time with him and is just a dad. He's not a bad dad when he gets over himself. I know he loves his son, but this depression he has fallen into, this escapism in the computer game...it's too much. Yes, I've talked to him...he knows how I feel. I told him back in December that I was worried for the first time in over a decade about our marriage. It really kills me that nothing has changed.

But that's him...not me. I am not happy in an overweight body. I like to feel strong and muscular. I like to be able to ride with the boys. Biggest loser really had an affect on me last night. Women lose weight all the time. It is such a struggle. Brittany broke my heart last night because I so feel her pain. I have to work at this every minute of every day, and it sucks. But if I don't, I see the alernative. I'm living the alternative and I hate it.

So today is work until I take ds to school. Then to the gym for cycling and lower body weights. I have to go up into the storage area at school to see what I need for the jogathon, but I think I'll save that for tomorrow so I can get some more work done today. Then ds has an afterschool meetup with friends at Mcd's (there's one right next to school). I will have eaten before I go, and it's nothing but diet coke and water for me there. Have to be home by 3:30 to meet the plumber. We have some knocking in the pipes so he is going to install something called a "hammer arrestor". Says that should fix it all.

Healthy dinner tonight is veggie sausage with black beans and veggies over brown rice.

Sorry for the novel. Wish I could say I was premenstrual, but I think I'm just finally looking at my life for what it is, and trying to figure out how to handle it.

Lori-enjoy your time with dad. In a way, it's a beautiful thing that you can see it coming...alot of people don't get that kind of insight, and lose the people they love without getting the reminder to spend time with them. It's so hard for me to be so far away from my mom now. She's very healthy, but she's 75, and that's not the time you move 3000 miles away. Times ticking away on that non-compete. I really believe that there is a reason for everything, and I think there is something about this job that is going to help you in your own practice somehow. Enjoy the trip...hope the weather is good down there.

Terry-I'm with ya on dd and the pill. When I worked in the OB/GYN practice, we saw so many girls complaining of weight gain. Is she on a low dose pill? Triphasics are usually better for weight gain. Those are the ones that are 3 diff colors. Get that walk in...I'll be back later to check in on ya.

Anna-my sweet cupcake warrior. After you come back from your first WW meeting this morning, have an "office meeting" and thank everyone for their kind donations...perhaps you can put a tip jar on your desk and suggest cash donations to pay for your new hot wardrobe. They really need to stop showing their love for you with food.

Nik- I'm proud of you, every day, all the time. It would KILL me to live the way you do. I am not good with isolation. I would be so depressed I'm not sure I'd get off the couch. You are an amazing woman. I'm so glad you're feeding your creative soul. Your painting was beautiful, I meant to comment the other day. You made me miss my art. It's been a long time since I seriously painted. It was a thing I did with my dad when I was younger, and it led me to art school. When he died, I put my paintbrushes away and have tried to pick them up again, but never have. I think I'm going to take a basic painting class at the art center here. Maybe it's time.
Don't just tune mike out. Neutralize him. Make sure you tell him how hurtful his jokes are...that way he can never say that he had no idea...my favorite male defense. It won't stop him from making them, but he'll be doing it knowing full well it's jerky.

Alright...time to work.
S

Sue.........(((((HUGS))))) to you. You can only change you. I know that you know this, but I thought I would throw that out there. I kind of have the same issue....where when Kevin is home, I just try to make things nice and comfy for him and then ignore myself and what is going to make me happy. It's a hard thing to do. We are used to making everyone around us happy....the hubby the kids, friends, etc. but for some reason, we have difficulty in doing for ourselves.
We have to stop that! LOL Nobody can do for us, but us.

Well said Sue! I think half the battle is won when we admit that our lives are not perfect, or husbands are far from perfect, and that we just feel helpless to change things. my marriage has always been a trial, I have struggled to be happy forever...and that is one of the reasons I sabotage...I'm afraid of dealing with the attention I get when I lose weight...I'm glad you mentioned that in your post...but I just have to remember that my marriage has issues whether I'm fat or thin, and that if I don't get a handle on this, no matter what the eventual consequences may be to my marriage, I won't be around long enough to find out what happens, cuz heart disease will kill me young and leave my kids without me. I love mike, but my kids are far more important to me. Sad to say, but true. And Sue, just for the record...I think YOU are an amazing woman!!! Pink hair and all...lol...xoxox