Pity Party -Table for 2 please for me & my bloated belly; Honey doesn’t like my muscles
Posted April 20, 2009
File under: Weight Loss
OH WHY OH WHY!!! PMS and I are never friends. As part of my cycle this is probably the lowest I will feel at any point in the month. I am so not a complainer for the most part. I just do the do and keep on moving forward. Treating this as a crying journal so I can look back and laugh at myself when I feel better. LOL
My whine list is for me. I will get over it by days end. I just feel completely blah and out of it at the moment.
1. Crappy scale - not that I get on you that often but when I do you never sho’ me love
2. Eating over the weekend was horrible. Not that I overdid it but porkrind for breakfast? What was I thinking!!!
3. Don’t yell at Rod. Let’s make it work. He’s only trying. So what he spent $11 on two chicken salads when you could make 8 salads by buying your own veggies and putting it together.
4. Bloating and me! Why is the tummy so big. I feel pregnant!
5. ROD MAKES ME FEEL HORRIBLE ABOUT HAVE MUSCLES!!!!!!! He looked at my right arm last night and winced. I asked him why. He said it freaked him out that he saw my tri-cep move! AHHH come on now - have I NOT WORKED OUT FOR THEM? I mean I’m not bulky! I have toned arms - I’m natrually big beause I have broad shoulders, but I have muscles! He likes curves and fat on woman. NOW U SEE WHY I AM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME ON MY JOURNEY! It’s one thing to want to do this for myself and feel attractive. But it really hurts when my own boyfriend, as much as he loves me, prefer the very soft arms that I did have. It’s not like I’m a body builder, I just worked hard to tone up my tri-ceps and biceps. *SIGH*
Now to the positive:
1. Slept a lot and feel very well rested
2. Got a lot of sun
3. We didn’t fight! Instead we talked. Alright. Although I feel very insecure about myself at the moment.
4. Today so back on board with water, fruits, good food and just doing it right. No turning back the clock. Just keep on going!
5. Even though Rod may not like my arm muscles, I need them - for me! I need them because I know I am doing the right thing. I am not overdoing my strength training like years past. I do just enough to stay strong. SO THERE RODNESS! I LOVE U But this isn’t about you - it’s my journey!
6. Favorite Monday workout. 3 hours of heaven - that’s all I want today.
My vent and rant for the day. I just need to pull my head out of the slump and get moving.
