Honesty time.

I feel like a failure when I come to the forum and haven't succeeded in my goals, which is why I don't come here very often. Everyone on here seems so together and I am just floundering all over the place. I haven't given up at my usual six week mark. I'm still working out several times a week, but my eating habits are much more of a struggle, and I get so embarrassed when I see all of yur posts and know that I am not doing those things, and I am not losing the weight.

After I was sick, my scale said that I had gained back all the weight I had lost and I got so disgusted. No matter how many times I got on it, no matter what time of day--and it just pissed me off. I mean how was it possible? So I just started eating whatever again, and now I am losing again, but I still feel discouraged. I mean, my word, why is this so hard?