I am now officially back to the mundane life of dieting and exercising. I need to get focused to get back on track as i took off on tuesday for me and my boyfriends 10th anniversary. We went to ocean city, md and had the time of our lives and now I'm kind of depressed coming back to my boring little depressing town full of oil refineries, crime, and broken dreams. this little area holds a record for being the town with the most bars in one square mile. I need to find a beach to live at but I'm scared of raising kids in the party atmosphere of a beach. I am planning on having kids in the next few years but I am trying to lose weight so i can try to keep it under control with healthy habits weight wise. I think I figured why I don't want to exercise. Everything is too boring. In ocean city you couldn't stop me from walking/playing/skipping, etc. I never wanted to take my car!! Here I wouldn't leave the house if I didn't have to. I am so scared to move because this is where I was born and grew up. It's so tough to be scared of failure when you are truely on your own but I need a change or I can keep existing but not truely living. But then on the othe hand I may just be restless right now from a sort of culture shock. But I desperately miss my ocean.

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