I'm a success story, its taken me a long time to get where I am, but I am here.* And thats all that matters!!* I used to weigh 305, I now weigh 194.* I went from a size 26 pants, 3x shirt, to a size 14 pant, XL top.* I'm not really sure about my goal weight, this is all new ground for me as I have never been this size my adult life.* I have always been 250 plus pounds, and always heavy.* This is a whole new world for me!* I know I would like to lose at least 30 more pounds, to be in the 160's sounds like a good weight for me, even my doctor thought that was a good goal weight.
So how did I do it?* Really, its wasn't some gimmicky diet, or magic pill.* I actually worked on myself with a counselor for a while.* I had a lot of negative self talk, that actually set me up to fail.* I would sabatoge myself without knowing it.* I would give up on myself.* I would always demand perfection, and if I 'cheated" then I had to quit.* After lots of therapy, and talking, and crying, I made a breakthrough last year.* I finally realized that I AM worth it.* That I AM wonderful, and vibrant, and worth every effort I can put forth.* I actually LOVE myself, and think I am just great!* I used to always think "maybe if I am skinny I will feel great, and everything is fine" well that is a lie.* I know it.* I love myself now, and its such*a great feeling.* And its not because of my weight loss, that is just an after effect of my love for myself.* Its a lot about what Oprah says, its not about the food, but whats eating you inside.* I had a bad relationship with my dad as a child and that made me turn to food for comfort.* It was the only coping mechanism I knew.
Now I exercise when I am feeling stressed, or I post on here.* As long as I can get the feelings "out in the open" it loses its power it has on me.
I wanted to tell you my story, I have come a long way.* Its a journey that I will always be on, but I am happy to be on it with "ME".* I am happy with me, I love me, and thats only something I can do myself, no person or object, or food could do that for me.* I had to accept me for me.* And once I finally did that, the weight thing wasn't an issue anymore.* Sounds corney, I know, but its what worked for me.
Feel free to send me a note if you have any questions, I'd love to chat!
God Bless
Tina
ps be sure to check out my pics, I have some before pics on there!