As for the diet(lifestyle change) I am having a very hard time. We are planning on having a weight loss competition here at the office starting the 2nd of January. We will all put in $100.00 and whoever looses the most wins the pot. I think we have about 8 people that are going to do it so far. I myself think that $100.00 is too much money but I guess that is a big incentive. So I will really need to be a good girl. I am trying so hard at this (NO I"M NOT) I could kick myself in the big fat ass. I am not going to lie about it. I eat like it is going out of style. I know everyone gets tired of hearing me whine like a baby but I just need some willpower and some motivation. I am going to do this if it kills me. Ok about the in laws buying gifts my in laws suck at gift buying. I always get them something and for the kids birthdays they will send them 5.00 each and for Christmas they buy me and Bill something and maybe spend about $20.00 total and give the kids $10.00 each for Christmas. This is coming from people that have NO bills. Their house is paid for and both vehicles. They dont ever go anywhere and I know they can afford more than that. They are so cheap they have not seen us in 2 years. They will not travel to New Mexico to see us since they dont like the way New Mexico looks. I told Bill that we would not go back to see them after Christmas if they cant make an effort to come to see us. We both work our butts off and they sit at home on theirs so I say the hell with them they can come to see us from now on. Well I will check back in later but if anyone has any ideas on how to go about staying on track and really doing this please let me know. I am desperate. I have been back and forth to weight watchers for so long now I keep making excuses. I keep telling myself I am going to do this and the next thing you know my fat a** is back in the kitchen eating anything I can get my fat hands wrapped around. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!! I think I am addicted to being a loser. Please help me. I just keep getting bigger and bigger. Have a good day. Angie