I'm trying to have the perspective that I (and my body) DESERVE to be healthy, I deserve to have strong muscles and a nice body and a self confidence, i deserve to go for a run and be outdoors for a while or go to the gym and work myself. You really do deserve the body you want. So go to the gym. And if you can't just CAN'T get the motivation to go, at least do somestretching, breathing, and moving your body- the more you just notice yourself, your muscles that are growing... you'll want to go to the gym!