ok, I know I don't read the heartbreakers thread as much as I should, I seem to be reading blogs constantly!! But at least I am back and weighing in which I wasn't doing for a while.
So, thinking about why I want to lose weight? I also, as Julie said, started this because a doctor embarassed me and told me I was too heavy and thats why I had a sore back. But over the last few weeks I have actually began to enjoy exercise and eating healthily and challenging myself to change i.e. going on a really fun night out with my mates without drinking alcohol which I did and it was great! or swimming 100 lengths of the pool this week, which I also did and rewarded myself with a massage!!. (yeah, I'm pretty shocked by this change in myself, I used to make excuses constantly and pretend that I wasn't overweight and didn't understand why i was wearing size 18 (UK) clothes, when it is pretty obvious!)
anyway, so know I've kinda realised that I want to lose weight so I can feel better about myself, raise my self-esteem and have more fun! I'd be lying if I said I don't want to do it for anyone else, I would love to see how my family would react if I lose a big amount of weight!! But overall I just want to do this to be happier and I've always said that a fear I have is not living my life to the full so I just realised that by living unhealthily and being overweight I wasn't living my life to the full because I wasn't as happy as I could be!
Ok, this was meant to be a short post but it's more like a blog, sorry!!
hope everyone's having a great monday!
