My problem is with self sabatoge. I don't know why I do it. It's embarrasing - really - I've been here since March and haven't lost a thing. Well, lost and gained, lost and gained. I just keep spinning my wheels and I don't know why. I fee lost, like I'm drowning, not clear headed. I need to pass through this and just do it! I know I am ready. I want more than anything to be the happiest person I can be, to live life to the fullest. I've got to fight off this self sabatoge.